Monday, August 20, 2007


When my boss fires someone, he tells them, "I'm freeing up your future. You are no longer employed by Action Pawn."

Today, I called him and said, "I'm freeing up my future. As of August 31st, I will no longer be employed by Action Pawn."

It's been a series of events, really, that have led me to consider the chance that Scout and I will be eating Ramen and cancelling our subscription to Direct TV, but they're all mundane details that really aren't worth going into. The bottom line is that I'm just not happy. And at the ripe ol' age of 27, I feel too old to be bothered with the bullshit I deal with every day at work. It's time to be happy.

And so, with the balls I've built up by being a Pawn Broker (the eight months there hasn't been a total waist), I've decided that it's time to stop saying, "Maybe someday I'll..." and actually start doing what I've been putting off.

I've realized two things about myself in recent months: 1) I hate being told what to do, how and when to do it, and then being critiqued on it anyway. I want to be the one giving orders, not following them. 2) I've always wanted to dictate how much money I make. No more eight bucks an hour, thank you very much. I'm ready for (and worth) more.

The only way I figure both of these will happen is to go into business for myself. It's taken a long time for me to come to a decision about what one thing I actually want to commit myself to. I've thought about a yarn shop (not a big enough market here), an Alpaca farm (too expensive), and a coffee shop (too much competition). However, I've always known that when times are tough, people always need food and shelter. Food and shelter. Not yarn, not cute fuzzy llama lookin' things, not coffee.

I've realized that when 80 people tell you that you're good at something, you should listen. I should have figured this out years ago when people would walk into my house and tell me how beautiful it was. Even today, with half of my house in "being remodeled" status, friends gasp when they walk in the front door.

I've always loved taking something hideous and making it beautiful. I must admit, Scout tested me a bit when he bought our house without me seeing it first. I was scared when I walked in and things he saw as awesome were things I saw as daunting "this has to go now" projects. But I must say, with all the work we've done, I love our home. Even with all of the things needing to be done, we have transformed something ugly into something pretty sweet.

And so, shelter it is. I'm venturing into the world of house-flipping (taking a hideous - yet structurally sound- house, making it beautiful, and selling it for a profit). I'm still doing my research, and will most likely be applying for an office job of some sort in the meanwhile, but I actually feel like I can do this now.

One can't be a Pawn Broker forever. Well, at least this girl can't.

Wish me luck.


ABW said...

Good for you! I'd ask you to come flip my house but since we live in housing.....oh well.

I've been to Action Pawn and I can see why you'd want to leave! Good luck!

Dick said...

Have fun!

sharona said...

Wow! Good luck!

Anonymous said...

Very ballsy

Good luck, Erin!


allicadem said...

Go for it! I think you should persue anything that empowers you!!!

allicadem said...

PURSUE. Dang it!

Anonymous said...

You could also help others with remodeling projects at their house in the meantime. Maybe even some fung dung whatever, lol. You already got the networking part started w/military contacts. Love You,
Uncle Tim

Nicole said...

Can I please live vicariously through you? I watch "Flip That House" religiously on HGTV and LOVE IT but would never have the guts to do something like that myself. I can't wait to see exciting!! I can already see big profit margins. :)

Heidi said...

WOW! You will do great. There is a store in my area (not too far for you) that is called Re-Store . . . it is 'second hand' store for building materials. A lot of home builders donate the extras and you can find some real steals if you just get in there and dig. It is run by a charity so all proceeds go to building new homes for needy folks. Today they had some great brand new marble tubs. Just a thought!
GOOD LUCK! I love you posting all the photos especially before and after!