Saturday, November 21, 2009

Regret


My Mama (my grandmother, pronounced MawMaw) called a couple weeks ago and left a voicemail to let me know she was having surgery. It was a non life-threatening surgery, so I put off calling her.

I kept telling myself that I would call to check in on her when I was less tired or less busy. I was going to tell her about all the crazy things Tucker was up to, how work was going.

She died this morning.

Not only do I feel terribly sad, but deeply regretful that I didn't just get on the phone and call her. Just one last time.

I'll be driving to Wichita on Tuesday after work. Interesting how I've rearranged five days of my life to say good-bye to her, but I couldn't have cleared five minutes of my life to tell her hello.

9 comments:

Wife to a Soldier and Mommy to a Toddler Princess said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Will be pray'n for you during this hard time.

ABW said...

I'm sorry. Let me know if you need anything.

The Mrs. said...

So sorry to hear about your loss. you'll be in my thoughts.

debey said...

love & hugs.

Only $19.95 said...

I know how you feel, and I am also very sorry. Hope you got my message(s) and I miss you. All my love....

dutchgirl said...

Oh Erin, I am so sorry.

Abbey said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.

sharona said...

I hear you.
Sorry to hear about your loss, made even suckier with it being near the holidays. Hope your trip goes ok, seems as though the weather should cooperate for you.

tears of angels said...

http://www.legacy.com/gb2/default.aspx?bookID=5025248104911
its a guest book online for mama