Saturday, February 09, 2008

You've Got to be Kidding Me

Everyone told me that once we adopted a child, we would get pregnant.

Everyone was right.

What nobody predicted, however, is that we would be saying good-bye before we even knew to say hello.

In my opinion, a miscarriage is a fucked up way to find out you're pregnant.

After cramps, lower back aches, and bleeding, I took a pregnancy test to find out that, yes, I technically still have levels of HCG in my body. But all the other symptoms inevitably mean that the baby is already gone.

But listen, I have a child that I'm terribly in love with - I'm so honored to be his mother. I know how lucky I am. Life is still amazing.

And I'm ok. Really.

15 comments:

Sarah said...

(There's nothing I can say.)

sharona said...

holy crap.

ABW said...

ditto what Sarah said.

Thinking of you and Scout and Tucker.

Anonymous said...

YOU HAVE A GREAT ATTITUDE, ERIN, BUT IT IS STILL A TRAUMA AND I KNOW GOD WILL HOLD YOUR HAND ALL THE WAY THROUGH IT. I MISSCARIED AFTER HEATHER AND REALLY DIDN'T DEAL WITH IT EMOTIONALY UNTIL A MONTH LATER. AM PRAYING FOR YOU ALL.

LOVE AUNT PENNY

P.S. THANKS FOR THE SWEET THANK YOU -- SO GLAD EVERYTHING GOT THERE OK

debey said...

you have my phone number...if you need to talk, i'm home, being G~ma.
love and huggs, from my heart
debey

Guard Wife said...

{{Hugs}}

I have no words.

dutchgirl said...

I am so very sorry :(

Anonymous said...

Glad that you're safe.

Dick

Heidi said...

I don't know what to say . . . do you need some Panera bagels? Sending you hugs . . .

Only $19.95 said...

Thinking of you....

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for about a year thanks to a link from Heidi. I've never met you, but that doesn't stop me from crying as I read about your loss. I'm so, so sorry.

Jennifer Funkhouser

Vypergirl said...

Erin, I am thinking of you and your family.

Vonn** said...

hugs and prayers to you all.

trying said...

so sorry for you and your husband... ill keep you in my prayers.

AFSister said...

What a cruel thing to happen, Erin. I've lost two, and it never gets easier. You accept it, and you move on, but it never gets easier.

I'm so sorry, Erin.