Everyone told me that once we adopted a child, we would get pregnant.
Everyone was right.
What nobody predicted, however, is that we would be saying good-bye before we even knew to say hello.
In my opinion, a miscarriage is a fucked up way to find out you're pregnant.
After cramps, lower back aches, and bleeding, I took a pregnancy test to find out that, yes, I technically still have levels of HCG in my body. But all the other symptoms inevitably mean that the baby is already gone.
But listen, I have a child that I'm terribly in love with - I'm so honored to be his mother. I know how lucky I am. Life is still amazing.
And I'm ok. Really.
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(There's nothing I can say.)
holy crap.
ditto what Sarah said.
Thinking of you and Scout and Tucker.
YOU HAVE A GREAT ATTITUDE, ERIN, BUT IT IS STILL A TRAUMA AND I KNOW GOD WILL HOLD YOUR HAND ALL THE WAY THROUGH IT. I MISSCARIED AFTER HEATHER AND REALLY DIDN'T DEAL WITH IT EMOTIONALY UNTIL A MONTH LATER. AM PRAYING FOR YOU ALL.
LOVE AUNT PENNY
P.S. THANKS FOR THE SWEET THANK YOU -- SO GLAD EVERYTHING GOT THERE OK
you have my phone number...if you need to talk, i'm home, being G~ma.
love and huggs, from my heart
debey
{{Hugs}}
I have no words.
I am so very sorry :(
Glad that you're safe.
Dick
I don't know what to say . . . do you need some Panera bagels? Sending you hugs . . .
Thinking of you....
I've been reading your blog for about a year thanks to a link from Heidi. I've never met you, but that doesn't stop me from crying as I read about your loss. I'm so, so sorry.
Jennifer Funkhouser
Erin, I am thinking of you and your family.
hugs and prayers to you all.
so sorry for you and your husband... ill keep you in my prayers.
What a cruel thing to happen, Erin. I've lost two, and it never gets easier. You accept it, and you move on, but it never gets easier.
I'm so sorry, Erin.
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